Chaos in my head

Hello my lovelies, 🙂

what is going on in your life? I hope there are only positive vibes. 😉

Well, my life was really fast paced in the last weeks. The days flew so fast and sometimes I had the feeling that I was not really living my life. It was quite surreal. Have you ever had the same feeling?

What happened? Well I had a lot of work to do and the working from home thingy is nice but I really need some time in the office. Unfortunately, I am not sure when and if it is going to happen soon or again. My employer wants to make sure that it is safe for us all before we will be allowed to go back to the office. Well, I try my best to make the best of the situation. I had a really important project at work which had to be fulfilled without any mistakes and it had to be done fast. I had a lot of tasks and there was one meeting after the next. Sometimes I started my day at 7.30 am and it ended 6.30 pm. That isn’t really normal. I usually work 8 hours a day and it isn’t a problem to get the work done in that time.

The second part which worried me was that both of my parents had some serious surgeries. These were necessary and very important. So I couldn’t think about journaling or something else at that time. My thoughts were with my parents. I thought a lot of moments with us three being joyful together. I appreciated that my parents told me a lot of character traits like honesty, being helpful, caring for others or independence. Even to learn that you can fail in life and learn from your mistakes so you can get better next time. I am so thankful for that.

Because of Covid-19 and the surgeries we saw each other for the first time again after nearly 3 months. It was great. 😊 Of course, we spoke on the phone but that isn’t the same. During their stay at the hospital it was quite difficult to visit one. My dad wasn’t allowed to get visitors. Meanwhile, I could visit my mom onces. After the surgery of my dad had to go to a rehabilitation clinic and it wasn’t allowed to visit him. I am happy that both are doing well, they are at home and relax a little bit. ❤️

So, did I have time to journal? Well, not in the way I am used to do it. It was really minimalistic. I wrote blog posts and I forgot to post them.

Am I sorry for the missing journaling? No. It was the first time that I didn’t feel guilty or sorry for it. I know it sounds silly but it was a little breaking point in my life. In the past I felt so fast sorry for forgetting things or not doing things. But I learnt that I can’t handle everything (simultaneously). Even in my brain are thousands of things which I have to do, I know now that it is ok to push one task / our hobby / your passion for another part to the next day/week. That is ok and we are all human and should allow us to breath and don’t get stressed out.

Wisdom of the day: When your life is stressful and in your brain is full of thoughts, give yourself a moment, make a cup of coffee/tea and enjoy it. After that you feel relaxed and confident to handle everything.

Love to you all and stay safe,


Kommentar verfassen

Trage deine Daten unten ein oder klicke ein Icon um dich einzuloggen:

Du kommentierst mit Deinem Abmelden /  Ändern )


Du kommentierst mit Deinem Twitter-Konto. Abmelden /  Ändern )


Du kommentierst mit Deinem Facebook-Konto. Abmelden /  Ändern )

Verbinde mit %s

%d Bloggern gefällt das: